Today is the first day that I have taken a fall since my TM onset.  Well, that is if you don’t count the three times that I have fallen from my wheelchair since September 2010 (haha).   It all seemed to happen in slow motion……..

I was standing up from my wheelchair and holding on to the door of the car, using the car as leverage, to take the two or three steps necessary to get into the car.  On the first step, for some reason, my balance left me and I started to fall backward.  I still had one hand on the car door as I began to fall.

I could see it all happening as if I were outside myself (really weird).  I was able to maneuver my left leg so that it didn’t crumple beneath me which may have caused damage to my knee.  So I am really thankful for the increased strength that I have in my legs that allowed me to do that.

My friend Kevin, who was getting into his car to leave saw me as I began to fall and came over to help me.  Also, my friend Mike was inside the house and heard what was going on and came outside to help as well.

Kevin (a nurse) began to instruct me on how to get up unassisted by turning to get over onto my knees but I wasn’t able to do that for some reason.  Instead, I situated myself so that I was sitting on my buttocks and pulled myself back toward the wheelchair.  I then used my arms to lift myself onto the wheelchair and by putting my feet beneath me, I used my feet to propel myself upward and onto the chair.

Phew!  I just had to fight back the tears of frustration….  I especially didn’t want to cry in front of Kevin or Mike.   But really, I didn’t even want to cry at all… I just hate that I am so emotional at times.  This was no reason to cry.

As Mike pointed out to me, this was progress.  There was a time that I would never have been able to get myself up from the floor unassisted.  Today, I did just that!!!!  So I celebrate the progress and continue to thank God for the manifestation of the complete healing that he has promised to me.