There has been no one at my house today so it has been very quiet here today.  I didn’t even have the television on until late afternoon.  All morning I listened to gospel music that I have on my little player.  It was very rejuvenating and I needed an uplifted spirit today.   Not so much for myself but for others that I’ve read about that are suffering from similar situations.  I read about the frustrations of two different people who stated that they didn’t feel as if they could go on.  That made my heart heavy for them because I know how they feel and yet I didn’t have the words to share with them that would have made a difference in their outlook.

Sometimes we have the right intentions but we often say the wrong thing to those that really need the most encouragement.  And wrong words can often lead to that person feeling worse off than before.

I know that there have been times that I have felt like giving up and it is a horrible place to be.  I found out that I was looking to other people to change the way I felt or waiting for others to change my environment or do something that would make me feel better.  I realize that not one other person alive can do this for us.  Yes, positive reinforcement from friends and family is crucial but we have to be the ones to change our minds about how our recovery is going to be.  I could not do this alone.  I had to and still have to look to God for strength.  When I am weak, he is always strong.  When I am confused, he always has the answer.  When I feel depression trying to sneak up on me, I have to rebuke it in the name of Jesus.  I am learning to call on Jesus to pull me thru and learning to praise him for every minute bit of progress that I make.

Today, in my quiet time, I am asking God to guide me on how I can encourage others that need a good word and a good work to get them beyond what they are feeling.  Even if it means that I can get someone thru from one minute to the next minute then that is what I want to do……

Oh yeah…  I did three laps around the house today with my walker!  Tomorrow I am going to shoot for four laps.  Each day I want to add a lap.